Post by 2fw8212a on Jan 4, 2019 16:13:59 GMT -5
I always was a quiet and introverted person, specially among strangers.
I grew up in a Christian environment with a Christian mother then I always heard people talking about Jesus.
Then I grew up knowing that Jesus was important.
I was always alone most of the times, and I was full of problems. Problems that people could not see.
My mind was not in peace in many occasions as I was suffering from oppressions and these kind of things.
And I was tempted many times in doing horrible things against myself and others.
I thought about going to heaven sometimes, but how to reach there was hidden from my eyes.
But I knew Jesus was important to all those who wanted to think about going to heaven.
I already saw myself calling upon the name of the Lord so that He could save me somehow and guide me in the Way.
I tried to do it sometimes with this verse:
"Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me, and know my anxieties;
And see if there is any wicked way in me, And lead me in the way everlasting." - Psalm 139:23-24
Well, I thought, I did what I could. Now, I can only hope for mercy in that Day.
Then, I resumed life, full of sins and mistakes. Knowing that my debt was big.
I thank the Lord, because He certainly saved me from death many times.
When I was four, I died, but my mother decided to pray then the Lord gave me life back.
Then, I resumed life, still full of sins and mistakes.
I was walking oppressed, I was forced many times to do things I wouldn't want to because of fear of death and hell.
I was following the orders the oppressor was giving me, lest I suffer the punishment.
I was lost, walking tormented and almost having no peace in my mind.
I had some dreams, but my dreams were impossible to come true in my life due to many problems I had.
Then, I decided to make a decision:
I will do this with my life, I will live this way until death. Maybe the Lord will understand, even if He does not approve it.
I still needed the courage to do that. Because it was a hard thing to do for me (even if I wanted to), but I'm thankful I didn't do it.
Then, I was living my life. Then, something made me to think more before taking such decision.
Then I was convinced to seek the Lord and to know Him more, and to seek true repentance for my way of life wasn't right.
Then I decided to seek more and more. Then something convinced me of starting to read the Bible from the New Testament as Jesus could be there.
I decided to do it, and I continue reading and reading (with considerable amount of difficult, if I remember correctly).
I was amazed with the teachings of the Lord Jesus. I loved them.
Then I thought: Finally, someone who does good and speak truth.
And I kept reading, and I was happy with the words of the Lord.
Then, in a certain day I was reading and suddenly the truth came to my mind:
I am not pleasing the Lord; He is not happy with me. I need to apologize and repent as soon as possible.
How could I walk in this way for so much time?! All this time I was hurting Him, and He did not deserve it.
Forgive me, Lord!
And if I remember correctly, I was to a place and prayed there, asking for forgiveness and salvation.
After that day, my project of death was out of my plan of life.
Then I decided to walk by faith in the Lord Jesus, being thankful for all He has done to me until now.
And today I am thankful. My life has changed drastically since then.
Before I was walking depressed and without hope; today I am happy all the time and having hope even in the most hopeless scenario.
Before I lived for sin, passions and pleasures. Today my joy is in to live out of sin and to please the Lord.
I walked lamenting and saying:
Why no one show love?!
Now I say:
If no one wants to love... Then I will have to be the first to show it in Jesus' name!
Thank you, Lord Jesus!
I grew up in a Christian environment with a Christian mother then I always heard people talking about Jesus.
Then I grew up knowing that Jesus was important.
I was always alone most of the times, and I was full of problems. Problems that people could not see.
My mind was not in peace in many occasions as I was suffering from oppressions and these kind of things.
And I was tempted many times in doing horrible things against myself and others.
I thought about going to heaven sometimes, but how to reach there was hidden from my eyes.
But I knew Jesus was important to all those who wanted to think about going to heaven.
I already saw myself calling upon the name of the Lord so that He could save me somehow and guide me in the Way.
I tried to do it sometimes with this verse:
"Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me, and know my anxieties;
And see if there is any wicked way in me, And lead me in the way everlasting." - Psalm 139:23-24
Well, I thought, I did what I could. Now, I can only hope for mercy in that Day.
Then, I resumed life, full of sins and mistakes. Knowing that my debt was big.
I thank the Lord, because He certainly saved me from death many times.
When I was four, I died, but my mother decided to pray then the Lord gave me life back.
Then, I resumed life, still full of sins and mistakes.
I was walking oppressed, I was forced many times to do things I wouldn't want to because of fear of death and hell.
I was following the orders the oppressor was giving me, lest I suffer the punishment.
I was lost, walking tormented and almost having no peace in my mind.
I had some dreams, but my dreams were impossible to come true in my life due to many problems I had.
Then, I decided to make a decision:
I will do this with my life, I will live this way until death. Maybe the Lord will understand, even if He does not approve it.
I still needed the courage to do that. Because it was a hard thing to do for me (even if I wanted to), but I'm thankful I didn't do it.
Then, I was living my life. Then, something made me to think more before taking such decision.
Then I was convinced to seek the Lord and to know Him more, and to seek true repentance for my way of life wasn't right.
Then I decided to seek more and more. Then something convinced me of starting to read the Bible from the New Testament as Jesus could be there.
I decided to do it, and I continue reading and reading (with considerable amount of difficult, if I remember correctly).
I was amazed with the teachings of the Lord Jesus. I loved them.
Then I thought: Finally, someone who does good and speak truth.
And I kept reading, and I was happy with the words of the Lord.
Then, in a certain day I was reading and suddenly the truth came to my mind:
I am not pleasing the Lord; He is not happy with me. I need to apologize and repent as soon as possible.
How could I walk in this way for so much time?! All this time I was hurting Him, and He did not deserve it.
Forgive me, Lord!
And if I remember correctly, I was to a place and prayed there, asking for forgiveness and salvation.
After that day, my project of death was out of my plan of life.
Then I decided to walk by faith in the Lord Jesus, being thankful for all He has done to me until now.
And today I am thankful. My life has changed drastically since then.
Before I was walking depressed and without hope; today I am happy all the time and having hope even in the most hopeless scenario.
Before I lived for sin, passions and pleasures. Today my joy is in to live out of sin and to please the Lord.
I walked lamenting and saying:
Why no one show love?!
Now I say:
If no one wants to love... Then I will have to be the first to show it in Jesus' name!
Thank you, Lord Jesus!